Hey, where have you been?

It's been quite a while since my last post. I know. I wish I could tell you that it's been crazy over here, that I've been so busy with my amazing life, I didn't have time for a single post. But, alas, I have been sitting on my butt. I have been waiting. I have been watching tv, reading, taking care of my kids, and checking the calandar. I haven't been doing anything worthy of posting. On the rare occasion, that I did, I had no motivation to post.
And so now I'm here to tell you, the soldiers getting home is not the end of the trials. For us, it was the beginning. Marriage is hard for anyone. But after he got home from Afghanistan, every problem we had before, was bigger and more obvious. Everything we didn't have a problem with suddenly became a problem. I was lucky because I missed out on the alcoholism that sometimes follows soldiers home from the battlefield. But what was I going to do about all the other stuff? It was pretty overwhelming and it seemed hopeless at times-- most of the time to be honest. I suppose I got pretty depressed. I suppose I still am. They say it takes up to two years to regrow together as a family after a deployment. But we don't have two years before his next deployment. In fact, since January when he returned, I have only been with him for five months out of nine months we should have been together. (It's a long frustrating story that does not involve divorce. Don't worry) 
This means we have less time to get our shit together before it hits the fan again for deployment number two. And then we get to struggle though that and then try and grow back together in time for deployment number three.

 So when do we have a chance to just relax and be normal? When is our marriage safe or secure? It is tiring just thinking about, the next four years of my life (at least) are going to be lived on the edge of a marital cliff. I guess I'm so tired from trying to hold onto my family, I have no energy for much else.

 So there you have it, my depressing post. I did warn you that this blog was a look into the life of a military family. Did you really think it would be all happy stuff? At least we made it this far. Alot of couples didn't, so I guess we must be doing something right. Or maybe my husband is right. Maybe I'm too stubborn for my own good. 

Hopefully my next post will be soon. I love my readers!